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I have always believed that each of us has a soulmate, the other half of our very being, the only one who can make us whole. That without that person we can never truly be who we are meant to be.I have found the one I believe to be mine, yet he is the one I can no longer have.








































I feel you pulling away

leaving me alone to

face my destiny.

A woman you have

had before,

reappeared.

And suddenly my life

was hanging

by a thread.

Do you still have

feeling that you hide?

things about her

you cant say,

If not then why

have you turned

away?






I reach for you, living in a waking nightmare,
only half alive, feeling mostly dead.
Words and laws deny us,
hide me from you, hold us apart.
My soul cries for you,
a lonely half,
longing to be whole.
I dream of you, with me,
the final key
to my destiny.

I was wrong, to break your heart,
to again repeat mistakes I made in the past.
I am destined to destroy everyone I love.
I feel nothing but pain,
and nothing can ease its sting.
I see you, yet it is as though
a glass wall surrounds me,
allowing me a vision, but nothing more.
A tiny life, shimmers like sunshine
within my soul, a life you helped create,
yet my life is in shambles.
Ive tried to make you see,
that even though you dont need me,
my love is a tangiable force,
stronger then the wind,
and will never fade.






More secrets, more lies
private letters
that you hide.
Who is she?
this one who you will say
do I need to fear
you will go away?
If she means nothing
then why do you hide?
Do you love her,
is that why you cant tell me








































I Walk Alone
 
I am the judge, jury and executioner
I sentenced, found guilty, and murdered,
my last chance at true happiness.
I am not who i was,
will never again be the person I was.
I am nothing but an empty shell,
simply existing, not really living.
Hope is gone,
I no longer see the point,
to these robotic movements I make
to appear to still be alive.
I made my choice, to late now to change it.
To late to turn back, to far down this road
to change my path.
Empty inside,
scattered pieces of a broken heart,
lay among,
Pieces of a darkened shattered soul.
No one to blame,
but myself,
I don't want this,
yet I have no choice.
I must walk alone.

I know there was someone pulling my dark dragon from me. suddenly he hides things from me. and becomes secretive. I know its a woman from his past, but if he loves me then why not be honest and tell me the truth? And so in anger I pushed him away, and finally put an end to this phase of my life, the new little prince of this castle will grow up divided, part of him mine and part of him belonging to the dark dragon his mother will always love.


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